sigh.

I just watched The Notebook. Yeh i know i'm pretty outdated....but i gotta say that movie is heaps better than A Walk To Remember. Cried like shit. At least the movie has a happy ending & not a sad ending like how it was with walk to rmb.

Watching that movie triggered something inside me though....Something about the storyline brought back unpleasant memories..... Memories that left that scar.... When anything at all happens which has the slightest link to it, everything will come crashing back to me again, the past relived. So i've come to the conclusion: the scar is always gonna be there, will always be there & the mark will always be like adding salt to the wound whenever i watch/hear/sense (whatever) anything at all which has a link to my past. It'll never go away. Even if I think it's already gone away.

I'm either blind or ignorant...or maybe i just dont like to have something new unless i actually find something(someone?) i really really like, knowing how picky i am & having to match every trait of his to see if that person matches up to those things he has. Blind in the sense i cant see anyone else although there are so many more out there or it's just my stubborn heart. Ignorant in the sense that there are so many others who are interested but i just cant seem to accept them. Not even one. Maybe there's just something wrong with me.

Then there's this question i always ask myself - if i tell him/myself i'm over him, why do little "linking situations" like this still make those memories flood back as if someone was having me go thru the past again???

fantastic-fab day!!!

Firstly, it's cos im done!!! FREEDOM AT LAST!! & i got to finish the paper feeling happy rather than worried cos the paper was easy! Ok maybe i wont say easy. The paper was not really tough. =) Yep yep.

WOohoooO! So many things were on today. Sucha happy day really.

In the morning, there was this christmas parade on (yeh i know, i think aussies like to fast fwd their months from novemeber to a feel of december cos christmas decorations are already up everywhere) & the roads were all closed up for the parade. When i went out of my apmt today, ppl were everywhere on the road, lining up on either sides with chairs & balloons & kids everywhere...Sadly though, i couldnt be in the crowd & couldnt get to watch the parade cos i was making my way to chinatown to get the bus from there where the roads were not closed, to the exam place -_- So i missed the parade...! ="(

Neway, after the paper was done we all had lunch & because of the bloody hot weather all of us felt tired & decided to head home for a nap.. but instead (as usual) once reached home, the computer was turned on & the sleepiness just vanished. So chatted & chatted till it was 545pm then had to rush to go to church where there was this youth mass on at 6pm in conjunction with the upcoming World Youth Day!

For those of you who do not know what exactly it is, it's this huge event which is held once every 3 yrs in different, different countries across the world each time (sorta like olympics kinda feeling except in a religious sense!)

According to www.wyd2008.org, to be more precise: World Youth Day is the largest youth event in the world and will be held in Sydney from 15-20 July 2008. Organised by the Catholic Church, World Youth Day gathers young people from around the world to build bridges of friendship and hope between continents, peoples and cultures. Through the WYD08 experience, young people from throughout the world will make a pilgrimage in faith, meet, and experience the love of God. The young people will have an opportunity to rediscover their baptismal calling and the centrality of the sacraments of the Eucharist and reconciliation, and so discover a new apostolic zeal to witness more fully the Gospel in the modern world. All in the context of the beauty of Australia and the hospitality of the Australian people!

So that's why I'm gonna be in Sydney next year from 15-20 July! Yahooooo!!

Anyway, went for the youth mass & there was a procession after mass where the cross & icon of WYD was walked through the streets of adelaide. It was such an awesome feeling, really. If i had been in malaysia, NO WAY would i have been able to do such a thing. I doubt the cross & icon could even enter malaysian borders -_- But really, it was such a privilege to be able to be there at that point. To even be in australia as a whole. The timing of this whole WYD thing is just SO perfect! It being in aus just next year, otherwise i wouldnt have been able to attend it & would miss out on a once in a lifetime chance of it....

So yeh, after mass at 7pm, we waited outside church for the procession to begin & started walking thru the streets of adelaide. It was so fun! Felt like a parade more than anything else. hahahaa.. There were things given out like cool plastic candles which were able to light up, a wooden cross with 'WYD SYD 08' stamped on it & also helium balloons! It's been sucha long time since i actually held a helium balloon so it was kinda exciting. hahaah lol. I kno im pathetic.

There was this group of Africans playing music all the way during the procession, & those ppl carrying banners & the cross at the front of the procession. The cross & icon is actually the WYD cross & icon, which has travelled all around the world for all the WYD events. The same cross going across continents & borders, from Europe to Asia to everywhere. Could you imagine?! It was such an amazing feeling being able to be a part of it......

We walked thru adelaide city until 9pm when joanne, chastine & i decided to break off from the group & go grab dinner (since at that time we were passing by Rundle St where all the restaurants were & we were hungry!!). Half of me wanted to continue the procession back to church but i knew it was already 9pm & since i have got stomach problems, I had better get dinner so off we went to Scoozi with our helium balloons tied to the chair while having dinner. LOL. It was such a great way to end a happy day. I was SO happy i couldnt stop grinning like an idiot.

Anyway, pics would be posted up shortly!

oh, hurry up & set me free!!!

My last paper would be in about....*count off fingers*....20 hours.

Then i'll be crying tears of joy when all my pain & suffering for at least 8 months would be over.

OVER!!!!

Oh, how i cant wait!

In the meanwhile, my brain is starting to abandon me. I'm supposed to be giving my all for my last paper but it seems Brain isn't listening to the commands of its Master.

*sigh*

I started to lose concentration last night when i was supposed to finish off the remaining 3 chapters...Instead of finishing them 3 I only managed to finish 1 -_- Then I couldnt sit still any longer although i knew i had 2 more chapters to go thru. SO then, I had to force myself to get up at 6am today to complete my task.

Yes. 6am.

............................................*wows to herself & pats herself on the back*

It's still sucky though. 6.45am - 11am. About FOUR freakin hours to finish 2 chapters!!!! My brain was seriously lagging, taking everything in SO damn slowly & daydreaming in between..otherwise I could have gotten my stuff done at bout 10 maybe??! I seriously hope i rmb everything that i've studied!!!

ARGH! Stupid Brain!! ='( ..for saying this i hope it doesn't rebel against me when i'm sitting for my paper tomorrow... it better not.




















sigh. Look at that THICK accounting textbook & how much I gotta study... =(



















yeh. I was studying! At least...trying to?? Nah, there's a word for it.....it's called MULTI-TASKING! If you're wondering what a piece-o-paper is doing on my lamp, it's cos it gets too bright for my eyes when i turn it on, so i just block off the bright light & direct it onto my books instead of my eyes. Innovative huh? tee-hee!


Sooooooo...it just goes to show how handy a camera can be! When you lose concentration, take some pictures!! Never said it'll help you get back to studying though....

ALrightY. It's time to hit the books again!

20 more hours!!! Or since time has passed while blogging this entry, i'll make it 19 hours 30 minutes more!!

YAHOOOOO!!!!!

that's what you get for helping ppl out!! =D

WOOOOHOOoooooooo!!!!!

I got 5 bucks!!!! lol. I know it's not a biggie but it's considered RM 15!!! & you can get extra stuff than what you could get without this 5 bucks! & i didnt even have to really EARN it. WOOhoo!!!! I'm richer by 5 bucks!!!

WHY???

just because I helped 2 people out yesterday!

hahaahah.. man am i proud of myself now. LOL.

WOW.

What JOY! When i saw the money i couldnt stop smiling (that doesnt mean im money-faced!!)

Neway, yesterday i had just set off to cooking my dinner when the intercom buzzed. So had to leave my vege cooking for a while to go answer the phone. It seemed 2 people were locked out because they went out & they forgot to bring their key with them (& they both stay in a studio apmt, a 2-room unit.. meaning even if i let them into the apmt, they have no key to enter their unit as no one would be inside to let them in! - unlike our 4-bedroom unit)

SO then, this guy & girl were asking me to help them out, to call the Student Living after-hours emergency & ask whoever it was to come get them into their unit. So okaayyy..told them i'd do it & they told me they'd just stay outside the building & wait for the student living ppl to come.

Was feeling a little irritated cos i was cooking halfway...! When i replaced the receiver & went to check on my vege, found that they've already shrunk in size from overcooking & was on the process to being burned. -_-

ANYWAY! Had to turn off the stove & set my cooking aside for a while, went to get my phone & called the student living after-hour's thingy. The guy answered & i was explaining the whole scenario to him. THEN, he told me to get to those 2 & to tell them that he was going to have to charge them to get them their key....

I was like..."huh..i dont think it matters if you charge them cos either way, they'd need to get into their apmt!" .. I was being so clear that i was lazy to go downstairs just to tell those 2 that there was gonna be charges!! Pretty lame right?!

But the guy still insisted I go inform them that there'll be charges -_- BLoodY hell. If it was Malaysia, you didnt have to ask twice. It would mean profit!!!! GOsH.

So, feeling annoyed than ever, I had to take my keys & then went downstairs & outside to meet those 2. Lol. Seemed like those 2 were actually neighbours just living across the corridor from our unit. hahaha.. Was feeling sheepish then (& ashamed maybe, altho i didnt know them well) for being annoyed/irritated when helping someone out.

Told them what happened, yada yada...called the student living guy again & then finally said he'll be there in 15 minutes. All settled then! The girl was sooo appreciative saying thank you over & over, it made me feel happy for helping out. hahaah. I guess somehow you'd always feel happy after helping ppl out no matter how annoyed you were earlier...

Story ends when I left to resume my cooking. . . or so i thought.

I just went out to get a drink of water when i saw 5 bucks on the table on top of a piece of paper which had been peeled off from somewhere (prolly our door) cos there was sticky tape on it. Couldnt help but feel curious so went to take a look. & yes! It was for me! hahahaa..That's why i couldnt stop smiling when i saw it. It was so unexpected & so unnecessary & so sweet of them & so thoughtful & so grateful...whoaaahh. SO many things at once. They were thanking me for getting them into their apmt & saying the 5 bucks should be enough to cover the cost of the phone call & my time.

SO SWEET HUH!? I didnt expect anything in return at all but when things happen unexpectedly, it's when the benefit is at its max. lol. Now i feel like doing more good deeds. hahha. No, not for money but cos it just makes yr heart smile =) !