EWWWWW!!

I just have to write about this. I don't know why..! But guess am taking this as a relaxation kinda thing since i havent written in a while...

Neway the thing is...as i got off the tram today at Victoria Square, there were lotsa ppl as usual at the platform & so happened, the other tram was already there, the one heading the direction I came from. Was making my way towards the traffic lights whilst ppl were getting into the tram in front of me.

THEN......

this GUY.

He caught my attention because

1) He was walking the opposite direction, making his way to the tram (the one in front of me, not the one i came out of)

2) He had a three quarter sleeve black top on which was kinda tight but I guess that wasn't really a biggie

3) The shirt he had on was short. & I mean SHORT. I think that was what caught my attention in the first place. Guys as usual, have their jeans loose..his shirt wasnt long enough to cover his pants so the belt & everything could be seen. Just picture how short the shirt was. Loose pants yet there was flesh in sight. The distance between the top of his pants/belt area and his shirt was relatively great

4) As he was waiting to get into the tram, (he would have turned his back to me by then)...the thing i saw next practically made me go "what the f**K!!!" to myself. Rmb his pants were loose & his shirt short? But man. I did NOT expect his pants to be loose to the extent that almost half of his arse line could be seen. Ok maybe not half. More like a quarter??? BUT IT WAS SO HIDEOUS!!! *faint*

5) Seeing a quarter/half of his arse line indicated so obviously he wasn't wearing any underwear/boxers.

DISGUSTING!!!!!!

It was TOTALLY an eye-sore!!!

I bet ppl behind him who were waiting to get into the tram were also staring at 'it'. In broad daylight. SO clear. & so ugly.

Man. SO yucky. I wonder if he realises. or he just didnt bother.

Bah. Can't stand it. I felt like lifting his pants up for him. Nah. Just kidding.

The line was so friggin ugly. I can go on & on about it but then i'd just be repeating the same thing. lol. Something's up with me. I think it's exam fever.

But yeh. His arse line was ugly. Ok. That'll be my last comment.

ARGH!

This thing about 'fattism'

makes me have depression

but the fact that i cant do nethin bout it til i get back

only makes me the more fat

='(

sniff

I Want That Guy

I want a guy who is genuine
who is not afraid to be himself
I want a guy who cares
who puts me before anythin else

I want a guy who is funny
who'd make me laugh all the time
I want a guy who is sweet
who's good with words so fine

If only it was that easy
I know nobody's perfect
But if i could get someone
I want that guy

I want a guy who is romantic
who'd do things i never thought about
I want a guy who is playful
who'd give me the look & is able to pout

I want a guy who sings
so i'd wake up every morning to a song
I want a guy who's knowledgeable
so i'll learn from him as i go along

If only it was that easy
I know nobody's perfect
But if i could get someone
I want that guy

Want a guy who doesn't have too much pride
Want a guy who's willing to express himself
Want a guy who wants to be by my side
Want a guy who listens to his heart

Want a guy who doesn't run away
Want a guy who'd deal with things
Want a guy who lets me have a say
Want a guy who's there to listen

If he has all these
I want that guy
If i wake up & he's there
He'll be mine

Yeh, it's what you think it is. The lyrics to my latest song. ^-^

DECISIONS!!!!

Should I go back on the 15th & celebrate my birthday with friends & family back home

OR

Should I stay back here to celebrate my birthday in a new place for ONCE with friends here & go back on the 17th?!

Half of me can't wait to pack up & go home asap, but half of me wants to stay back here to celebrate my birthday with the peeps here!

WHAT DO I DO?

As usual, i cant make a decision! How exciting!!! -_-

to the soft-hearted

i was tlkin to a friend about something, relating myself to a situation & asking her if she would do the same if she was in the situation faced by A. What she said next was:

"that's what sets u apart from us....u're very soft hearted"

Ok, maybe i sort of knew this already. But at that point she said it, it felt as though i was hit on the head. Something jolted me & woke me up. After all this time, i guess it's useful to be reminded of that....

I think that's the factor which makes me get 'stepped on' in love...

...or that ppl sometimes take advantage of me with watever intentions they may have.

That's the reason why i get hurt so easily....

...or that i feel sensitive over things relating to the heart.

Maybe that explains why my tear ducts are extra sensitive too.

Listening to a sad song, watching some touchy romance movie, getting support from ppl at times when i need it, reminiscing the times with him, friends' farewells...even a surprise by friends could trigger my tear ducts. Which reminds me of one embarrassing incident which happened at gurney a few years back where 2 of my good friends surprised me on my birthday.. altho it being a belated one. I'll never forget that so-called episode. lol. I had to hide at some corner & waited till i got 'control' of my sensitivity. -_- Not to mention the rest of the surprises i've come across. So ppl, now you know. If you ever wanna surprise me, DON'T DO IT IN PUBLIC!!!

Meh.

I'll never be a BITCH (beauty in total control of herself) although i actually tried so hard to be one before. I need to harden up my heart! Even if a little.....

It's so silly. He knows i'm soft-hearted. & he takes advantage whenever he can. I'm stupid as well. For allowing him that sense of power. Why? I just can't help myself.

I need tough-heart lessons!

PS. if you're wondering, the previous post is not related to me at all. I mean, it is related to me in a third party link kinda way. ok. i dont make sense. nvm. all i'm trying to say is, it isn't about love on my side. still don't make sense. forget it.

......

stupid

blog

i hate the feeling of being used.

doesnt let me

create

but i can't do anything about it.

spaces

annoying

!!!

..............................................love is so messy & complicated. sometimes i wonder how it could be the most beautiful thing at the same time......

grr

grr

grrrr

hah.

I'M

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i shall create spaces

MANUALLY

Not wanting to be mean or smug, but i can't help myself hey. I just HAVE to say this:

-_-

meh

You just 'suffered' a loss!

It's totally your loss.

Ok, now time to truely go fishing. But since I'm so impatient, i dont think fishing is the right activity for me. I prefer something with more action like tennis or pool or dancing or basketball or...ok. getting outta topic. But yeh. Fishing is such a no-no. It's boring. I'll get impatient. I need something other than sitting & waitin for the fish to bite the bait. I need something else..... I wonder what that is. Maybe it should be hunting. Mmmmm.......

Let's go hunting, girls~!!! =D

* only 'special' ppl know what i mean by this entry, but doesnt mean those who're trying to make out the hidden meaning of this 'creative' entry arent special =P You could ask me what it means if you really are a busy-body.... lalalaa......... =)

here we go

again